Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Still Waiting...

As of right now, I am still waiting on an update about where I am going to be in Europe. This has continued to be challenging for me, but there are perks!
#1 It's keeping me from stressing about the location because I simply don't know where I'll be!
#2 It's giving me lots of time to pray.
#3 It's reinforcing the fact that God is the one in control, not me, and His timing is perfect.

My doctor showed me this diagram while explaining
that she believed it was my eustachian tube that was
causing the problem.
Yesterday, I went to the doctor's because I have had a ringing in my left ear for over a week. After paying, I sat in the waiting room for a while before being called back. The nurse took my vitals and then sent me back to the waiting room. Finally, I got called back to see the doctor and spent some more time waiting on that horrible crackly paper before she showed up. The doctor came in, looked in my ears and told me they looked fine. She told me that I would have to just wait it out as it may be the result of a viral infection. "Some people find steam, showers, and decongestants to help," she said. Then she gave me a bunch of handouts and said goodbye.

My first reaction was: what a waste of money! I had to pay to find out that I just had to wait it out and hope that it got better. And the ringing is still there which is frustrating as well as annoying.

As I started driving back to work from the doctor's office, I realized how much greater was the Great Physician than my doctor. I don't ever have to pay to have access to Him, because Jesus already paid the price. I never have to wait to talk to God, because I can pray whenever and wherever. My God deals with me in detail and He knows every hair on my head.

So, while I am praying for healing for my ear, I am also realizing that this might not be a random thing. It may be something I have to learn to love...kind of like waiting.